Flames to dust

I'm worst than before,
that's my beginning.
I have my heart broken,
and it's probably because I deserve it.
I got to the point of thinking that god has placed me here,
to suffer.
to make others realize than they can get something better.
that they will learn to love -really love- someone,
they will learn that with me,
but that does not mean thay the must stay with me...
all the opposite..
now that they know how to love...
they can love someone else.
I'm...
alone.
once again,
I feel the weight of my life in my heart.
I wanna cry.
I really wanna cry.
and I can't.