{it hurts}

It hurts.
every word.
every letter.
going deep in my heart.
like a sharp sword.

You will walk,
but every step,
every meter you go away,
you will still see me.
as a shadow.
I hope.

This paradise,
of the living people,
is not for me.

This so called life,
that I'm supposed to be living,
is not for me.

I've been so down.
drowning in my own tears,
I've met the earth,
when you were walking over me.

And at that point,
I saw it clear,
I was not to live living,
I was to live dying.
Slowly.
bleeding drops.
dripping blood.

your words came,
to my heart,
again,
and all the pieces,
remained,
on the floor.

And I,
remained in your thoughts.

And I,
remained dead.
but alive.